Wednesday, July 27, 2005
Dreaming and being lost...Theory of Game
When I got home at 7 p.m., mum had prepared dinner already. All the things I like most. Daddy is still working and I think I could not see him tonight again.
Turning on the lamp on my desk, I looked out of the windows and saw many alike lights here are there, all sparkling the warmth of home. I suddenly felt so secured.
This is already my third day back from Hong Kong. After 2 weeks of 18-working-hour-per-day, I feel a little tired but still could not stop. Election in SYSU has been held, and Jay won LCP without surprise. I feel so happy for him. Admittedly, he still has a lot to improve in leadership and other practical skills, but he has this kind of @ identity I appreciate most. Also he cares Gigi, his lovely little girlfriend so much, always being the observer of the meeting and that much mental connected. Although, for work, I think it’s really unprofessional. Anyway. If I give this kind of comments, would I be regarded as being jealous? Also, BoA has been set up!!! More TNs have been raised! I’m crazy about Guangzhou. Although my hometown still has so many disadvantages, it is really improving at high, high speed. Also the members here!!! In election, they said many good words on me, saying that I have motivated them so much and helped them identified their personal goals. Actually I also want to say, I really got much more inspired by them also. Especially Candice and the other girl who could not get through selection, who want to be full-time @ers, I felt so envisioned by them. Thank you all!!! Thank you for giving me this opportunity to contribute to @ and Guangzhou!!! Thank you for supporting me a lot in these 3 months!!! Hope @ Guangzhou could be the strongest LCs in the whole @ world!!! I believe u could make it!!!
Also, meeting Frank again. I feel strange that it seems that we haven’t detached. Kind of weird. Anyway. I talked a lot with him about RUC and my EBs. I feel a little lost that I could not lead his EB team, or otherwise, RUC will be the dream LC this year for sure. Anyway, I felt my tears rushing out when the other day Yvette told me on MSN that she missed me so much and realized this is the first time I’m not in conference with them all. I wanted to say YES, I miss you all so so so much also. I didn’t say that although, maybe I’m actually afraid of expressing my true feeling that clearly. Thinking up the three-year spent in LC, in RUC, I feel that I have been there forever. The members are already my family. The shopping, the dinner, the cafe, the hiking, all, take up all of my memories. I just could not say anything more here.
Also for the past two weeks, I have a lot of things to say. But when I was typing, I feel so stuck. This visit, without doubt, enhances much more understanding than last time. I felt like really working in the team. Teammates!!! Also, I could say it’s not yet a very perfect team right now. But I still have strong belief in all of us to strive for our dreams within 12 months. Hong Kong is now running so fast that we definitely could not stop for a single while!!! For Andrea, I felt sorry that I could not say sorry to her when I expressed my anxious in the planning. I was back into the emotional me again. I said to frank that I need meet you every one month to become the cold-bloody animal as you. And he accused me of framing his name up, hahaha!!! I actually feel so secured to have a Todai like him. He really cares la. I found that only he could listen to my bull-shitting stuff and he even postponed his “date” to listen to this kind of bullshit. When I got home, I got his SMG of comforting me and encouraging me. Thank you, Frank!!! I believe you could be successful successor in the coming two years. Hope we could still meet in IC 2007 in Poland. If I’m not married.
For the work, it never stops. Never. I slowed down these two days in the great fear of Gary being angry of my laziness. I hope I could always keep my 101 scores in his mind and support him to realize his dreams in the coming year. I feel so proud that my MCP is Steering Team member and too much to learn from him, from Alvin also. They are both strategic mania. Always wondering How could a man read so many books? I have to strive harder to be excellent according to his standard. Please lead the team to run fastest, Gary!!! Add oil!!! And be 60 KG leader to be more powerful!
I also met Jason that night, and surprisingly he came to the events in SYSU after sending ZJ back home. He was totally annoyed by ZJ’s potential extra affairs, which I feel so pathetic. What could I say? Poor man. I could foresee the ending of this relationship. But I wonder how long it will take. I also wonder whether entering a relationship again for me is a good choice or not. I’m getting married next year, but still having nobody to marry. Damn!!! But shall I decrease the level of my commitment and think more about myself or just be a naive and simple housewife? I feel lost.
Turning on the lamp on my desk, I looked out of the windows and saw many alike lights here are there, all sparkling the warmth of home. I suddenly felt so secured.
This is already my third day back from Hong Kong. After 2 weeks of 18-working-hour-per-day, I feel a little tired but still could not stop. Election in SYSU has been held, and Jay won LCP without surprise. I feel so happy for him. Admittedly, he still has a lot to improve in leadership and other practical skills, but he has this kind of @ identity I appreciate most. Also he cares Gigi, his lovely little girlfriend so much, always being the observer of the meeting and that much mental connected. Although, for work, I think it’s really unprofessional. Anyway. If I give this kind of comments, would I be regarded as being jealous? Also, BoA has been set up!!! More TNs have been raised! I’m crazy about Guangzhou. Although my hometown still has so many disadvantages, it is really improving at high, high speed. Also the members here!!! In election, they said many good words on me, saying that I have motivated them so much and helped them identified their personal goals. Actually I also want to say, I really got much more inspired by them also. Especially Candice and the other girl who could not get through selection, who want to be full-time @ers, I felt so envisioned by them. Thank you all!!! Thank you for giving me this opportunity to contribute to @ and Guangzhou!!! Thank you for supporting me a lot in these 3 months!!! Hope @ Guangzhou could be the strongest LCs in the whole @ world!!! I believe u could make it!!!
Also, meeting Frank again. I feel strange that it seems that we haven’t detached. Kind of weird. Anyway. I talked a lot with him about RUC and my EBs. I feel a little lost that I could not lead his EB team, or otherwise, RUC will be the dream LC this year for sure. Anyway, I felt my tears rushing out when the other day Yvette told me on MSN that she missed me so much and realized this is the first time I’m not in conference with them all. I wanted to say YES, I miss you all so so so much also. I didn’t say that although, maybe I’m actually afraid of expressing my true feeling that clearly. Thinking up the three-year spent in LC, in RUC, I feel that I have been there forever. The members are already my family. The shopping, the dinner, the cafe, the hiking, all, take up all of my memories. I just could not say anything more here.
Also for the past two weeks, I have a lot of things to say. But when I was typing, I feel so stuck. This visit, without doubt, enhances much more understanding than last time. I felt like really working in the team. Teammates!!! Also, I could say it’s not yet a very perfect team right now. But I still have strong belief in all of us to strive for our dreams within 12 months. Hong Kong is now running so fast that we definitely could not stop for a single while!!! For Andrea, I felt sorry that I could not say sorry to her when I expressed my anxious in the planning. I was back into the emotional me again. I said to frank that I need meet you every one month to become the cold-bloody animal as you. And he accused me of framing his name up, hahaha!!! I actually feel so secured to have a Todai like him. He really cares la. I found that only he could listen to my bull-shitting stuff and he even postponed his “date” to listen to this kind of bullshit. When I got home, I got his SMG of comforting me and encouraging me. Thank you, Frank!!! I believe you could be successful successor in the coming two years. Hope we could still meet in IC 2007 in Poland. If I’m not married.
For the work, it never stops. Never. I slowed down these two days in the great fear of Gary being angry of my laziness. I hope I could always keep my 101 scores in his mind and support him to realize his dreams in the coming year. I feel so proud that my MCP is Steering Team member and too much to learn from him, from Alvin also. They are both strategic mania. Always wondering How could a man read so many books? I have to strive harder to be excellent according to his standard. Please lead the team to run fastest, Gary!!! Add oil!!! And be 60 KG leader to be more powerful!
I also met Jason that night, and surprisingly he came to the events in SYSU after sending ZJ back home. He was totally annoyed by ZJ’s potential extra affairs, which I feel so pathetic. What could I say? Poor man. I could foresee the ending of this relationship. But I wonder how long it will take. I also wonder whether entering a relationship again for me is a good choice or not. I’m getting married next year, but still having nobody to marry. Damn!!! But shall I decrease the level of my commitment and think more about myself or just be a naive and simple housewife? I feel lost.
Friday, July 15, 2005
First about HongKong
It’s my third day in Hong Kong again. I got up at 8:24 and cooked a large breakfast for all, not Ron, for he was hurry to internship. But the kitchen still doesn’t work a lot, anyway, this time is not going frustrating me again. I should learn how to simplize all the procedure things and learn how to cook well without any real tool and device, or bowls. Although this really yuck! Anyway, I feel really happy when seeing people having my food. As Mandy and Jacso said, only if the food could be eaten, it’s good enough!!!
However, the ride to office makes me think a lot. It’s all about HK people. Only they themselves in the world don’t know how unique they are. I just want to summarize my fluffy thoughts here:
1. No smile anywhere. You could only see the smiles from the models on the bus. Pathetic, seriously. And their mouths are always towards earth. I think all of them have a lot of work to do and feel so nervous or under great pressure. But how about themselves as a person?
2. For people in the street - Dress:
1) Males: Dress formal or feminism
2) Female: Dress fashionable or neutral. Seldom high-heel shoes.
3) Glasses everywhere
4) People look at others always with alert and doubt, no feeling of security.
5) They walk really fast, or I should use the word of rush.
6) All want to look like in young and energetic appearance in dress.
7) Hair is always short and gelled or extremely long.
3. Talk:
1) They are always polite.
2) Slow pace
3) Tune feels strange
4) Logical and realistic
5) Never over-promise
6) Makes sense all the time
4. Society:
1) Really large gap between the rich and the poor in Financial Situation
2) Not much different in the mental world, though
3) High speed and efficient
4) Internationalism
5) Diversified, and tolerate for wield behaviour
6) Workaholic
7) The most, Materialism!!! Money masters!!!
5. Economics:
1) Financial Centre – Banking world!!!
2) Most about resuscitation
3) I really want to have a close watch on their capital market. I think it’s the best bridge for foreign capital to enter Mainland. Since the amount of deposit is really huge in Mainland and once the secondary market is activated, there will be a fierce competition in their marketing sharings. I’m guessing who’s rushing the fast. The incorporation between CB and Citibank turn out to be a failure could tell me how cautious when they enter Chinese market. I’m considering how the Banking industry in Hong Kong operates and how we could customize and learn from it for Chinese Market.
4) This city is all about money.
5) The security of economics is fragile and fully elastic. Post-Keynes’s policy could not help much, I do think. That’s why the society tolerates everything. It’s so ideal model in the mortal world. But it really depends on the function and performance of the main markets in the whole world.
What I hope most, is that the Hongkies could enjoy life rather than work exclusively. Life is all. Work is only work. Smile more and sincerely, see broader sky beyond the skyscrapers, think more besides money. Think about dreams!!! We need dreams and real love here!!!
Back to AIESEC, we really run out of time, but until now, I’m proud of my MC teammates. They are all so great!!! Although all of us have too much much much to improve, it’s still great that we could share with, motivate and take care of each other really a lot!!! Gary is always under lots of work and becoming the seldom-smile type person. A little miss the bygone him. But leaders really shoulder much, I could understand. Hope he could also exert his brilliance on us. I think he has this main responsibility to output his idea and strategic thinking to us. God knows how much he has read and thought about this. More influential communication is highly needed!!! Andi is getting greater in my mind. She has real sense of humour and the real personality. Also she’s kind to teammates, I felt so moved when she lent me the blanket!!! So warmy lar!!! Mandy is also great, shows me about HK and offers me much useful guide to this wonderful city. She is so considerate and good at housework. I appreciate her so much~:P Hope she could survive among mass AIESEC work and study together. JacSo and Ron is the TT in our team J, I could not live without them for my Internet, document and the other appliance in the house!!! Jacso is very cute, very very cute!!! Ricky, not enough time to get much familiar, but looking forwards to it. Mindy is always busy. But she’s getting more and more beautiful and looks like a real OL lar!!! Bomi…excited to see her!!! Leave the imagination here. I really feel so lucky that I have a bunch of these people around me and supporting each other. Although there is still a long way to become a perfect team, I do have this strong belief. Let’s live the legend in HongKong. Back to Gary, I really hopes he could run for AI instead of random MCVP, it’s not the way he’s going to. Leaders with Vision, knowledge and skills! Hope everything goes well!!!
Back to the scene in front of me, many buildings out of window, crowded, diversified, much work, that’s the life I love. Miss Frank and all my EBs and members in Beijing, Miss Natco, Miss Jacqueline, Miss sherry, Miss Jason…
Life is being changed.
However, the ride to office makes me think a lot. It’s all about HK people. Only they themselves in the world don’t know how unique they are. I just want to summarize my fluffy thoughts here:
1. No smile anywhere. You could only see the smiles from the models on the bus. Pathetic, seriously. And their mouths are always towards earth. I think all of them have a lot of work to do and feel so nervous or under great pressure. But how about themselves as a person?
2. For people in the street - Dress:
1) Males: Dress formal or feminism
2) Female: Dress fashionable or neutral. Seldom high-heel shoes.
3) Glasses everywhere
4) People look at others always with alert and doubt, no feeling of security.
5) They walk really fast, or I should use the word of rush.
6) All want to look like in young and energetic appearance in dress.
7) Hair is always short and gelled or extremely long.
3. Talk:
1) They are always polite.
2) Slow pace
3) Tune feels strange
4) Logical and realistic
5) Never over-promise
6) Makes sense all the time
4. Society:
1) Really large gap between the rich and the poor in Financial Situation
2) Not much different in the mental world, though
3) High speed and efficient
4) Internationalism
5) Diversified, and tolerate for wield behaviour
6) Workaholic
7) The most, Materialism!!! Money masters!!!
5. Economics:
1) Financial Centre – Banking world!!!
2) Most about resuscitation
3) I really want to have a close watch on their capital market. I think it’s the best bridge for foreign capital to enter Mainland. Since the amount of deposit is really huge in Mainland and once the secondary market is activated, there will be a fierce competition in their marketing sharings. I’m guessing who’s rushing the fast. The incorporation between CB and Citibank turn out to be a failure could tell me how cautious when they enter Chinese market. I’m considering how the Banking industry in Hong Kong operates and how we could customize and learn from it for Chinese Market.
4) This city is all about money.
5) The security of economics is fragile and fully elastic. Post-Keynes’s policy could not help much, I do think. That’s why the society tolerates everything. It’s so ideal model in the mortal world. But it really depends on the function and performance of the main markets in the whole world.
What I hope most, is that the Hongkies could enjoy life rather than work exclusively. Life is all. Work is only work. Smile more and sincerely, see broader sky beyond the skyscrapers, think more besides money. Think about dreams!!! We need dreams and real love here!!!
Back to AIESEC, we really run out of time, but until now, I’m proud of my MC teammates. They are all so great!!! Although all of us have too much much much to improve, it’s still great that we could share with, motivate and take care of each other really a lot!!! Gary is always under lots of work and becoming the seldom-smile type person. A little miss the bygone him. But leaders really shoulder much, I could understand. Hope he could also exert his brilliance on us. I think he has this main responsibility to output his idea and strategic thinking to us. God knows how much he has read and thought about this. More influential communication is highly needed!!! Andi is getting greater in my mind. She has real sense of humour and the real personality. Also she’s kind to teammates, I felt so moved when she lent me the blanket!!! So warmy lar!!! Mandy is also great, shows me about HK and offers me much useful guide to this wonderful city. She is so considerate and good at housework. I appreciate her so much~:P Hope she could survive among mass AIESEC work and study together. JacSo and Ron is the TT in our team J, I could not live without them for my Internet, document and the other appliance in the house!!! Jacso is very cute, very very cute!!! Ricky, not enough time to get much familiar, but looking forwards to it. Mindy is always busy. But she’s getting more and more beautiful and looks like a real OL lar!!! Bomi…excited to see her!!! Leave the imagination here. I really feel so lucky that I have a bunch of these people around me and supporting each other. Although there is still a long way to become a perfect team, I do have this strong belief. Let’s live the legend in HongKong. Back to Gary, I really hopes he could run for AI instead of random MCVP, it’s not the way he’s going to. Leaders with Vision, knowledge and skills! Hope everything goes well!!!
Back to the scene in front of me, many buildings out of window, crowded, diversified, much work, that’s the life I love. Miss Frank and all my EBs and members in Beijing, Miss Natco, Miss Jacqueline, Miss sherry, Miss Jason…
Life is being changed.
