Crystal Dream Land

This blog was written on the way back to New Delhi. The past 12 days feels like a dream, which flows away without consciousness.

I could not tell the exact feeling right now. Does this conference worth my waiting for a whole 12-month or not? I suddenly could not offer the answer. Because during the whole conference, I just could not help thinking up every single moment in last IC 2004 in Germany. This term, I should have felt much happier. Compared to last years the hard adjustment to Chris’s new leadership, this year we experienced a strong and fierce team storming. At that time, I questioned why did I come to IC 2005? And all my team-mates began feeling sick one by one, Mindy, JacSo, Mandy, Gary, Andi…I simply lost the passion suddenly. Each session, I just tried my best to keep myself awake and learnt very very litte, at least too far away from my expectation. I kept on wondering this year where the inspiration from Sophia, the HK Delegate in2004, Flic, etc. is. What I got most inspired most is Chan Alvin, I simply saw the one-year-ago me in him, who I miss so much and want to be so much. But is this fact ridiculous?

I’m still searching to all the answers to the questions aroused before.

But still something makes the difference this year and lets me grow up.
1. Networking. This year, I could hold a more stable mood when talking to others instead of the aggressive and acute tune which I saw in Chan Alvin repeatedly. J And this time I could have real conversation with guys from other GNs, which gives me more profound insight into this world. Also this year the best friend I identified in IC is Chico, a very very sweat gal working now in UAE. She was with me at the last moment of the closing plenary, with the sad music, at the only moment I feel most precious in this IC.

2. PDU. Know the feel of my being in my PDU team? Home. A bunch of people who share the same personality, the same kind of laugh, the same kind of mind-set, the same of expression of passion. I really enjoy the single moment spent with every one of them, Gabiza, Irne, Patrol, Tobi…I just wonder how lucky I am to get into this fantastic family. I suddenly find my great passion for Talent Development again after the 3-month sleeping of my true soul. I was born for that. And I simply make the decision to treat AI VP PD as the biggest goals I want to achieve in the next year. Too ambitious? I don’t know. Truly, I’m not qualified enough right now, but I have the faith to realize it.

3. Finance. The learning is not that intensive as I expected. And what surprises me most is that I find myself positioning much higher than I thought. But I also realize that, only a good mind-set and fantastic ideas plus systematic planning is just just just basic. What needs most? Action!!! I suddenly feel the huge things on my shoulders. Yes. I will make it in this year. I don’t want to feel myself daydreaming when listening to AIESEC in Germany. History never happens if nobody dares to dream.

4. Team-building. I don’t know. Simply my team is at the stage of storming. I just feel how huge the responsibility is for a team leader.

5. Dances!!! Year, dance!!! What interests me most of this AI team is their dance. Fantastic. Also many other dances I enjoy the most during the conference. And I want to show my deepest thanks to Il yu, who always teaches me a lot.

I suddenly find my motivation in this IC is from my motivation for others. When I elaborated to others about my passion and ambition for AIESEC, it’s already the best way to motivate myself. No matter what, I won’t give up.

Anyway, in this bus full of people who have already consumed all their energy, I suddenly miss the moment of Official Dinner when the fire works in the sky looks like falling upon me. The best moment of IC05. That moment, I was thinking I was in the dream, such a nice night, with the nice people around us, with the music around us. I felt the overwhelming romantic strike into my heart, when still there were a lot of people busy with talking some very irrelevant topics. I just wondered how I could treasure this moment more and more. But fire works last only 2 seconds, 20 seconds, 2 minutes. I should know very very clearly that what finally will last until the end of the time with me. Being dazzled? Or being daggled?

When I wrote down my working plan after IC back into HK, I suddenly found that this moment of freedom is that valuable. Anyway, this is the challenge I was and am always looking for, no matter what, I won’t give up.

Next year, UBS award and AI!!!

Let's hope!